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Going through reading week again

Posted on: April 22, 2009

This is doubtlessly the hottest reading week I’ve been through. It’s cooking me, and it’s hardly raining. Well it did rain, but in the end the weather was hot again.

Ironically, I have caught a cold too. So that means I cannot blast the fan at its max in the room.

I haven’t blogged for quite a while, but anyway, my laptop’s fine and running again. However, my dad just told me he brought me a new one, second hand, no doubt, but newer than the current one I’m using. I wonder how working with it will be like. I’ll kind of miss this one though. But it’s very slow, and it’s been throwing fits a little to much.

Oh no, that means I’ll need to re-install MATLAB into that one. I’ll have to remember that. :S

I just read a nice science fiction story by the Person with the Un-linkable Blog. And it was nice! 😀

Have been mugging a lot (most intense mugging reading week ever), and face-booking in spaces between. Many people are seemingly caught up with a Chain-Reaction game which claims to destress. From the looks of it, it does really seem like some form of escapism for many.

I like Simon’s blog about the Victory over Amalekites. It’s a good reminder for the Reading week, especially. Last week I was so tired, and not feeling well, that it was so hard to drag myself to go to church, especially when I knew that I was kind of going alone. In the end I managed to go though, and stayed alert until church was over. Was almost fainting on the way back, mainly because the cold was getting at me. But I liked the message Pastor preached and it’s a good reminder for me I think.

The message was about loving God with all our heart, soul, mind and strength. In a nutshell:

The heart is the seed of decision. Loving God is a decision – deciding to Love God and take the sacrifices/effort that comes along with it. Like making up your mind to do devo each week, serve in church etc. On a side note I’m happy I managed to do devo each day for quite some weeks consistently. The day seems so much more blessed with a good beginning!

The soul is the seed of desire. Hence we must thirst after God like the deer pants desperately for water. It’s not just a decision you painfully make in your head, it should be the desire of your heart too. And if the heart does not desire for the love of God, it means that it has already been filled up with other things, most likely things and burdens of the world. Hence one must empty his/her own heart to let God reign in the highest place there.

The mind is the seed of deliberation. Love for God is not blind. Neither is it purely intellectual, that one loves based on logic, not on desire. That’s why the soul comes first before the mind – but the mind is important because one needs to love God based on truth and understanding. Hence we must study God’s word and pursue His truth to love Him better, and love Him more.

The strength is the seed of deeds. Love is not a decision, a desire and constant learning. In other words it’s all emotional and theoretical only. Love for God overflows into your deeds in the lives of others, as said in Jesus by the 2nd most important commandment – love others as thyself. The vertical relationship between man and God should extend horizontally too, but rooted based on our love for God.

I realize that I myself am lacking in love through strength and maybe desire. The desire is growing stronger, but I do hope that the strength comes along with it as well.

And I think it’s very important to let nothing temporary drag away our focus on what is eternal. Not let it take away our joy, passion, and love for things eternal. Exams, especially.

That’s why when I’m studying, when I make myself conscious that I’m studying for the Lord with His strength, and still place him first, I am able to gain speed and gain understanding.

Not that it is a focus on why we should put God first.

I like JM’s post on Campus Blog on the false images of the ‘Gospel of Prosperity’. The Christian Gospel is NOT one of prosperity. Believe in God so as to be blessed in material wealth, the false gosepl hails. Not that God won’t bless His childeren in material ways, but that is not the focus of His blessings for us and for our growth, much as we like being financially stable, having awesome jobs and good grades. Awesome jobs and good grades won’t count for you when you enter into eternity. They only count for your days on earth, and that’s a ‘maybe’ too, because the world is extremely realistic, and unpredictable. And who knows how long more your days on earth are?

Believing in Jesus won’t gaurantee you that you get the job of your desire, the grades of your desire, the health you desire, the personal relationships you desire and other things you desire.

Because it’s not about your desire, it’s His. And it is His desire for us to grow spiritually through the circumstances around us and know Him better, for this is what will matter in eternity.

I have been looking at Malaysian Dream Girl blog and website events now and what struck me quite a lot was the haircut they had given one of the contestants there. Her name is Dawn (same as my sister, but different family name). I agree with most commentators out there, it’s appallingly short! I remember I had short hair back in my secondary school days and when the hairdresser cut it too short, it would make me miserable for weeks before it grew back to an acceptable length again. What more a contestant in a highly-hyped national competition!

Many were giving negative comments about the hairstyle, e.g. ‘watermelon on head’ (thanks to Kenny-Sia’s blog I suppose), and ‘mushroom’, etc. All except for the aspiring model herself. She took it on stride for the next few weeks, tried to like it and did the best she could with it. And after the first photoshoot which didn’t look nice at all mainly because of the hairstyle, her photos got better and better. And I think this has made me admire her spirit more than ever… she just takes whatever she’s given, and does the best that she can with it.

It doesn’t change the fact that she looks better when her hair was long(er). [OK, perhaps I’m being a bit biased here, go look at the photos and decide yourself.] Anyway, she did reveal herself that she was not comfortable with her hair being that short. It did not do wonders to her looks (most contestants benefitted from their new hairstyles), but it did show train her up to be more professional and versatile model, whether or not she wins the competiton. And that is the more important thing, I feel.

Sometimes we must look beyond circumstances to see the thing that’s more important behind. Just that sometimes we don’t see it yet, but then the promises are clearly revealed in the Bible – just have to claim them and look ahead with faith, and live with the lot given to us.

I think I blogged quite a while already, so better get back to my work. Oh yes, I’m still waiting for today’s Malaysian Dream Girl’s elimination results to be out.

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2 Responses to "Going through reading week again"

Lovely blog, full of wisdom about God\’s love ~ all the best with your studies

Thanks Martyn. 🙂

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