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He Gives and Takes Away

Posted on: September 21, 2009

Was singing the song ‘Blessed be the Name of the Lord’ in church today.
There was one line in the song that goes ‘He gives and takes away’. A
line that was deeply etched into my mind and heart on those days my mum
went to heaven last year.

Today is Charissa’s birthday, and it’s
overwhelming to see the number of friends she has who still remember
her deeply, and whose life she’s still very much a part of.

I
received an SMS last Thursday while I was halfway through my bio lab
from Matthew saying that he lost his dad to death, following with
details of the wake and cremation. My heart just went out to him and
his family then. It takes the experience of facing a death personally,
to understand what it feels like. There is just this void gap when you
lose someone that there’s this vacuum in your heart, telling you the
person is there no more, and you’re so thrown off balance that you just
need to fill it with something. With sorrow, with memories? With the
assurance of God’s promises that there is life after death? With the
love of those around you?

I think there is no experience yet in
my life parallel to losing the people I love to death. No wonder it is
one of the only recorded incidence (at least directly recorded) at
which Jesus wept. Yes, there is life after death, but still, death
separates and it is very painful. Yet it is still very assuring and
comforting to know that death is not the ultimate conquerer.

As
I was sitting in the BTC bus on the way to church today, I saw how it
was bright and sunny outside on the road. Again nature reminds me that
although dust has returned to dust, life around you is still there, and
you must somehow learn to move on.

Pastor’s message today was
about the second coming of Christ, which is very near, any time from
now, because almost all the prophecies of his coming are fulfilled at
this day and age. And the idea of Christ coming again any time of now,
in a blink of an eye, when we are still unprepared, really blows away
my heart and mind. It made death seem so insignificant, and that it is
just but a passing moment, when suddenly all of us will be swept into
eternity, entering eternal grace, or eternal judgement.

I know
Christ is true, and His promises are true, because I always see them
unfolding, and coming alive, in my own life and in the life of others.
But I shudder yet when it comes to the question on whether I am ready
or not, when He comes, or even when my own time on earth comes, should
it come before the time He comes again. True, I have already accepted
Him as my personal Savior. But have I lived my life in the way that it
says and proclaims that I am saved by Him? What have I been focusing on?

Just
a reminder to self today to focus on things that really matter now, and
looking beyond temporary joys and sorrows – and to make life really
count, in the Lord. He’s been knocking on my heart these days and I’ve
only to find courage to surrender, and respond.

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2 Responses to "He Gives and Takes Away"

Dear Gail ~ ur blog really touched me todayIt\’s only a year since ur Mum\’s death but u can speak openly about it, bless uYes, when Jesus wept over Lazarus he showed that he was human (as well as God)Don\’t be worry about being worried when Jesus comes ~ YOU ARE SAVED, hallelujahIt was my Mum\’s 65th birthday yesterday ~ my sister bought her some Goldfish, ha!!God bless you dear, dear sister

🙂 Thanks again for the encouragement Martyn! A happy birthday to your mum from this virtual friend. And yes, every birthday for her, and us each year is a blessing indeed!

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